Dear Johan:
Today you turn 5 years old! A whole handful of years. You are smart, funny, quick-witted, kind, empathetic and the joy of my life. You bring laughter and music to our home. Even sitting in traffic is more fun with you as we tell jokes. I love our time after school when we sit on the couch and snuggle. We talk about our days and shares hugs. I love bedtime when I read you books and then sing Woody Guthrie songs to you. I love it even more when you join in the singing. I love sitting at the dinner table with you talking about little and big things. I love watching you learn new things—recognizing letters, doing math, understanding presidential politics, swimming, taking care of Gonzo, managing feelings, and making friends.
My greatest happiness and my greatest challenge is being your mom. I mean that in the best way. You make me think about the things I do and the words I use. You make me determined to make this world better- because I want it to be better for you. You make me feel full of hope. You have a keen insight and a warm heart.
We just elected Barack Obama to be our president for a 2nd term. I am so proud of the way you were involved in the election. You watched all the debates with us, learned about the candidates, and formed opinions. We voted no on marriage discrimination and we voted yes to Barack Obama. You came with me to the polls and helped me put my ballot in the counting machine. This is such an important part of our lives and I’m so glad we shared it together. You wore shirts and buttons proudly, standing up for what you believe in. Keep those convictions, honey. They will take you far.
Our lives have changed a lot in the last year. Some people have gone. New people have come into our lives. These are big changes that sometimes are hard. It’s hard to miss people we care about. It can be a challenge to be part of a new household where things aren’t quite how they used to be. I want you to know that you have handled these challenges with love and in such a big-boy way. But, as you know, change can also be good. It can bring us new people, love, and a whole lot of fun. Welcoming Andrew into our lives is a way that we have changed and grown for the better. He loves you so much and I know you love him. It is such a joy for me to see you and Andrew having fun, goofing off, and being pals. You amaze me every day. Your bright and optimistic spirit inspire me. I want you to know that no matter who comes or goes, it’s always you and me. We are the best team ever and I’ve always got your back, kiddo. Our family may change again as the years go on but what will never change is that you and I are a family.
I am so excited for what age 5 will bring. You will start Kindergarten. You may even ride a school bus! You will lose a tooth, gain more knowledge, and continue growing up to be a wonderful kid. I am so lucky to be your mom.
Happy Birthday, my little (getting bigger) sweetie. You are my favorite kid in the whole world. I love you up to Pluto and past all the galaxies and stuck to the very furthest star.
Besos,
Mama
