Positivity

This has felt like a rough couple of weeks. I feel things deeply and tend to take things hard, but only for very short periods of time. I think I am pretty resilient. One thing I am trying to improve is my ability to see the good in even things that are difficult. Addie's comment on my last writing talks about this somewhat.

For example, today when I went out to my car after yoga class, my car would not start. It turns out my car needs a new engine that would cost more than the car is worth. And I still owe money on the car.

But as I walked a few blocks to my dad's house and then back to the yoga studio, I made a list of good things about the situation:

- I got to enjoy yoga class

- I wore good walking shoes, even though I wasn't planning on an early morning icy walk.

- I have resources to get my car towed and people around me to help me get where I need to go.

- I have a job where showing up "late" doesn't jeopardize my employment.

- This happened on a day when Johan could stay home with Eduardo, even though that wasn't the plan.

Even after finding out that my car is DOA and I am going to have to scramble to figure out new wheels, and feeling some fierce frustration that accompanies that, I am trying to keep things in perspective. Today my dad sent me this.

This is such fantastic and hopeful news for my dad and my family and anyone living with MS. A pill to make walking easier. There are smart, dedicated people out there creating pills that can help people with MS walk. That can help my dad walk along as Johan learns to ride a bike.

As I am sitting around trying to come up with money I don't have for a car I wasn't planning on buying, feeling a little sorry for myself, I kept going back to this article. And, well, today was a pretty great day after all.